I have a cold. I feel like garbage. It’s hard to focus, I can barely type.
While most working people can stay home, away from work when sick, as a self-employed person, I don’t have the luxury.
I’m super lucky to do what I do, and I believe that I’ve discussed the pros and cons of self-employment previously, but being sick is definitely a con.
There’s no one else who’ll do something for me. I’m paid monthly with agreed upon terms, so the show must go on.
What I do is certainly not life or death, but I do have a deep need to fulfil my obligations. I think in the 7 years I’ve been doing this, I’ve maybe only missed a handful of days here and there… and it wasn’t from illness, rather I’ve simply forgotten or there was a snafu in the software I use.
Today, I’ve just completed the basics – no preparation for the week ahead, no writing, no research… nothing. The thing is, a day like today really messes me up for the whole week… and what if I feel worse tomorrow? Or the day after? Ugh… I don’t want to think about it.
Well, now I’ve pretty much convinced myself to push ahead and do a little more. Great.
Then a nap.